I'm not nervous or scared about the actual procedure since we've been through it before. I'm more nervous about finding out if it will work this time or not. Getting the call that we weren't pregnant was one of the worst days I've ever experienced, emotionally speaking. I really don't know how I will handle that news again. I know people say "hopefully you won't need to find out because maybe you'll get pregnant this time", but it is so much easier said then done. I'm terrified to allow myself to believe I might have a little baby (or babies) inside me this time because I don't want to ever feel that crushing feeling again. But at the same time, how am I going to go 2 weeks without looking at my bloated belly and thinking that just maybe there is a baby in me?
Ugh! I'm going to try REALLY hard to take it one day at a time and enjoy the experience without getting too invested (if that's even possible).
So here is a picture of what the night before a transfer looks like for me:
I'm off to shower (since I'll be in bed for the next 48 hours) and then I'm going to try and get some sleep. Wish me as much luck as you have available!!